I woke up at 4:30 am. I'm usually quite disturbed when that happens. This morning, however, I was calm, figuring I had little planned this day and I could sleep in once I went back to sleep.
These are hours where I think I spend in the Lord's presence. I was feeling...nothing, just loneliness. Which is often in early morning hours. Briefly I envied married couples who had each other, could cuddle and hold each other. But I realized that even as married couples there are times of loneliness. Even married people need to individually spend time in Jesus' presence.
I realized I haven't been spending much focused time with the Lord and began to praise Him as best I could. After a short time I felt a release and a relaxing in my body. I prayed that I could feel his affectionate love for me in every aspect of my being. That he would give me a sense of companionship so I wouldn't feel alone.
As I prayed for what I needed the thought of "abundance" came to mind. I wasn't praying for material needs but rather needs of my spirit, character, inmost being, self image, sense of purpose. And I prayed for an abundance of everything that I need for that is what the Bible tells us to do.
There are "30 top verses about abundance in the Bible.
An abundance of peace, contentment, rest, focus, trust, joy, satisfaction, companionship, dignity, royalty, strength, courage, wisdom, affectionate love, mature love, agape love,
We have nothing except what comes from God.
After about 2 hours of laying in bed, praying and thinking about these things I didn't feel empty or alone.
We need to wait in his presence, to drink in the Lord, absorb his presence, breathe his air. We nurture our spirit in this way. God makes us whole, complete and mature.
